Betrayed!
My girlfriend was living with another man . .
. in my home!
I
suspected that she was cheating on me. She was staying out all night partying
with her “friends from work” then coming home either drunk or hung over. Then
there was this guy at work she was always talking about. I confronted her and
demanded to know if she was having an affair. She lied to me and denied it. I
was furious. In a jealous rage I stormed out of the home, slamming the door
behind me. I left and moved to my parent’s home nearby.
My
world was shattered. How could she do this to me? We had been living together
for five years. I loved this girl. I had offered to marry her. Didn’t that mean
anything to her? What about all the good times we had shared?
To
be honest, I hadn’t been the best guy to hang around. I was a regular drinker.
I hadn’t always been considerate of her. Maybe we could talk this out I
reasoned. A week later I found out that the guy from work had moved in with
her. I was outraged! I called her on the phone. She still denied having an
affair. She insisted that this man she was now living with was “just a friend”.
Yeah, right. She said that she “didn’t want me out of the picture yet.” What
did that mean? I could feel my rage boiling over. I threatened to kill her and
her new lover. I slammed down the receiver.
One
of my buddies at work tried to console me. “Forget about her. You’ll find
another one.” He took me out to bars, but it didn’t help. I really couldn’t
talk to any women. I was angry with all women because of what my girlfriend had
done to me. I became depressed. I tried to fill the void in my life with
pornography. My thoughts became darker. I contemplated suicide.
One
day I was sitting in front of the television set channel surfing and I stopped
and heard a pastor preaching a sermon on
forgiveness. His sermon was about forgiving others so God could forgive us. He
said that God cannot forgive us unless we forgive others. He read a scripture
from the book of Mark: “If you do not forgive, neither will your Father in
heaven forgive you your trespasses.” I realized that I was a sinner and that I
needed forgiveness of my sins. I also realized that I needed to forgive my
ex-girlfriend for what she did to me. The pastor prayed a prayer of salvation
and I accepted Jesus into my heart. When I got up from my knees praying I felt
the load of sin and depression lifted from me. The Lord had given me peace. A
peace that I had never had before. I
felt God’s unconditional love. God had sacrificed Jesus, His only Son, for me.
Jesus willingly died on the cross and took the punishment I had deserved so
that I could have abundant life, and when I die He has a place for me in
Heaven. Even when I didn’t know God, he still loved me. If I had been the only
person on earth, God still would have sent Jesus to die for me. And that would
be the same for you. He did it for all of us.
Do
you need peace? Maybe you aren’t struggling with loneliness, anger or
depression, like I was. Whatever it is that you are fighting against, Jesus is
the answer. He can help you overcome anything. Are you sick? Jesus is the
healer. Are you addicted to pornography, drugs or alcohol? Jesus will set you
free.
God
loves you and has a great plan for your life. The Bible says in Jeremiah 29:11
, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of
peace and not of evil, to give you a hope and a future. Jesus said in John
10:10 , “ . . . I have come that they may have life, and have it more
abundantly.
How
can you receive the abundant life Jesus has for you? In John 3:3 Jesus said to
Nicodemus, a religious leader, “Unless one is born again he cannot see the
kingdom,” In Romans 10:9,10 the bible
says “That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your
heart that God has raised Him from the dead you will be saved. For with the
heart one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made
unto salvation.”
If
you confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus is the Son of
God and that He died for your sins and rose again you can be assured that you
will go to heaven.
Pray
this prayer:
Dear God, I know that I have sinned
and that I need help. I believe in my heart that Jesus is your Son, that He
died on the cross for my sins and that You raised Him from the dead. Jesus, I
ask for your forgiveness of my sins, wash me clean with your blood. Jesus, I
open my heart and invite you to come in. Make yourself real to me. I confess
you as Lord and Savior of my life. Please help me to walk with You and learn
Your ways. I give you total control of my life. Amen.
Where
do you go from here?
Pray every day. Read your Bible
beginning with the New Testament. Attend a good Bible believing Church that
operates in the gifts of the Holy Spirit and teaches the full gospel of Jesus
Christ. Receive full-emersion baptism. Fellowship regularly with other believers
in Jesus Christ.
